Life's Journey

I was able to have chemo again this week... um, yay? Ugh... sigh.  When they ran my labs on Monday we found that my WBC and ANC numbers were better but still not in the normal safe zone.  They were high enough that they were able to go ahead and move forward with chemo for the week.  I still have to be careful of germs but I am able to get out a little more now.  In an effort to raise my WBC count I am now receiving Neupogen shots for three days following chemo.  I had my first one yesterday, not too bad.  But, I must admit that today is definitely not a good day.  Not only am I facing the chemo hangover but the Neupogen has added it's own fair share of side effects.  I am pretty sure my head is in a vice, my stomach is back on that rollercoaster, and my bones are being stabbed with icepicks.  Oh yea, fun day!  But, this too shall pass...  tomorrow will be a better day.

Today I decided to take control of one of the things that I can - well sort of.    The past two days I have found that my hair is falling out by the handful... yup, it's time!  Today I am going to my hair guy and shaving it off.  Whoa!  That's a big step.  Again, I stand strong in my belief that it's just hair and it will grow back - no biggie.  But, I must admit that running my hand through my hair and having a handful to throw away is kind of jolting.  So, this step of shaving it off is going to give me a little control over it.  I'm armed and ready, I have wigs for days out, I have scarves and hats for around the house and errands.  Bring it on!  Summer is coming and I think it may feel awesome to have a cool head.  

On a lighter note, I'm looking forward to this weekend. Roy's mom and Grandma are driving in from California on Saturday and staying through Tuesday.  We are planning a mother's day brunch with the four of us and my mom Sunday morning, then they will keep me company for chemo next monday before heading out on Tuesday.  It will be great to see them and have their company for the weekend. 

I'm still facing things one day at a time.  Resting when I need to and figuring out how to best manage these side effects.  But, I'm halfway through it!  This is week 4 of 8!  I will keep fighting and smiling along the way.  Again, I couldn't do it without all of you and your positive thoughts.  Lots of love and hugs to all! xoxo